i should be writing my essay..

I just want to go to the beach with a blanket wrapped around me and some tea, burry my feet in the sand, and watch the sun rise and the waves crash around me. Summer I am so ready for you. I need to do some more soul searching and school is depriving me of that.

Note to self: keep moving forward and don’t dwell on the past. we all get too sick in the head dwelling on the past. appreciate the past for what its worth, but accept change and live in the present. different, amazing things are to come. not better per say, but equally as important in the story of life!

Note to everyone: Stop and realize how far you’ve come. Look at all your accomplishments, big and small, that you made this year or past couple years. You’ve done more than you think you have. Take it all in and stop being so hard on yourself. You are constantly progressing even if it seems you have faltered more than accomplished. Be proud of yourself, its okay to be. We are constantly moving ahead and wanting more, but we need to be aware of how much we have already accomplished. It’s good for the soul to be proud of oneself

update

an update on life, more so for me than for anyone following me because I know yall don’t care.

- I am annoyed of all heterosexual males; they need to grow a pair. i do not have time to deal with boys who need reassuring, constantly want to hang out, and get mad if I don’t answer their call. i need to stay single

- I need to step it up on my school game. Planning on applying for the psych honors program and need to maintain my GPA. I’m already sensing one of my professors is going to try to stand in my way of a 4.0 this quarter. hes a cocky (but hot) bastard and needs to get over himself

- Coachella is in less than 2 weeks and I just made my plan of who I need to go see. They need to release the set times already. I’m too anxious. But, planning this around my schedule of classes is stressing me the fuck out

- I have been feeling a little down lately. I was doing good for awhile. I’m just annoyed of myself right now. I’m such a procrastinator, I can’t keep my life organized no matter how hard I try, I’m so forgetful and always lock myself out of my apartment, my minds always on a million things at once, yet I can’t get anything accomplished, and the list goes on. I seem to always do things the hard and least time efficient way. I also need to stop trying to please everyone because it always leaves me screwed with my own shit I need to handle. but how can I change who I am? I just got to work with what I got and take baby steps in improving. I guess you can call me a carefree perfectionist. I recently just realized I’m a nice bitch. I’m so many contradictions fml

- note to future self: if you drink too much, walk your ass home. not cool you keep taking over natalie’s bed 

I just want to go thrifting for days and not have to write another MMW essay ever again. OMG I WANT TO COMPLAIN MY HEART OUT… but that’s not pretty and I hate when people complain.

I will reward myself by thrifting all of spring break. salvation army i need to be inside of you right now! badly

college=questioning where you’re going with your life every late night you spend studying

sighh im tired of reassuring myself

Lol at the guy who just got my number at the library. i am such a sucker for akward guys. But seriously any guy who has the balls to approach a girl and be a gentleman about it deserves some consideration. I’ve noticed an increased hungriness in UCSD guys lately.. interesting

Thank god i just bruised my nose. I seriously thought for a sec I broke it. Do not provoke a wrestling match with someone who has 50 pounds on you, especially of just solid muscle. ouchies. Lesson learned

Coachella on 4/20… say what? i can’t wait to be reunited with the sunshine of my life, Taylor Venema!